The truth is, it is so difficult to serve joyfully and esteem others highly.In my devotion today, I had quite a few questions to ponder about.
- Will I be able to rejoice in my friends' success, even when it is at my own expense?
- Will I be able to ask God to favour my peers with opportunities exceeding mine?
- Can I reject the spirit of strife and competition?
- Will I be able not to envy others who outshine me?
As I thought, I felt so guilty as I realised how selfish I was. How even though outside I may be able to congratulate them and feel happy for them, I will still have that hint of envy/jealousy sometimes. I guess becoming a better person really takes a lot and it isnt an easy thing to do. There's so much more that I need to improve on, so much more I need to repent for and theres just no way I can be as perfect as Him. Therefore if He can humble Himself, what more I.