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| Fanning away all the negative vibes |
"Even the stars they burn, some even fall to the earth"
Tomorrow is the math promos paper and to be very frank, I'm completely scattered. I can imagine the insides of my brain, all the gray folds and twists, all slowly exploding like the brains of the 'chosen' few in Kingsman.
Despite planning to not pass the subject ( I have to be quite practical here ), that little voice of guilt keeps popping up and shooting down all my YOLO particles. Oh well.
On a side note, have been really thankful for my friends and family lately.Those that have been just the pillars of support to my ever crumbling mind. Most importantly, I'm really thankful to have chosen to walk this with God. I've never experience Him in such a personal manner in a really long time, feeling so out of sorts and lost in life .
I really like the phrase that goes " when you enter His presence with praise, He enters our situation with power". I know I've not worked the hardest for the promos,However, whatever the results and experience, I'm going to thank God. I think even from the basic thanksgiving of the opportunity to even go through this, I can never be more than thankful. ( though in all honesty, so many times I question my decision)
Feeling all knotty and sad just thinking about how my friends are going to leave the school. I don't know why suddenly there's this flood of loneliness ( hydrology. eww). I'm already starting to miss them so so much, never will I have imagined myself to be so sentimental. (though I'm not some thick wall of Jericho either) Just, y'know, when school gets so 'corrupted' and the only reason you are staying sane and uncorrupt is through your trusty buds, and now they are leaving..for good...just stinks man. Even stinkier than the haze.
Well I can't be that selfish to plead for them to be with me forever. Life has to go on. People still have to shit ( totally irrelevant I know) Let me just sit on the swinging chair and with each up and down, I'll be brought back to why I chose this and how amazing and how beautiful life is.
There there, too much feelings ( and too much math)