Yupp, it's the third day of decemberrrrrr!!!
WOOOHOOO I'm already in the christmassy mood although working aint that easy D: shall fill you in later. Anyway ...
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TADAHHHHHHH ! That's my thrid day sign! XD Actually typing this out, I'm not in any excited or jumpy jolly mood, cos I made many mistakes today and I felt like crying. (I'm sucha loser and cry baby I know) BUT! in my head (plays the Jason derulo song) I FELL EGGCITEDDDDDD!!
I bet in the most shameless person you've or you'll ever meets that likes to take photos of herself despite being not pretty at all, but, it's actually quitee fun? I mean if you take pics of yourself with stupid faces la.
So anyway about the mistakes I made today at Mr Bean. THE MOST UNFORGIVING ONEEEEE. Here it comes........I FREAKIN PUT THE CHEESE PANCAKES IN THE WRONG PLACEEE. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. I bet the aunty (head) there must've been fuming mad at me cos she showed me this few pieces of paper that was filled with people's complaints to Mr Bean. How direct right. So I felt really bad, and on top of that I made the pancakes so freakin ugly. Forgive me for my coarse language but I'm so mad at myself and so nervous which explains why I feel like crying. Going to work feels like going to a netball match THAT nerve wrecking.. Oh gosh maybe I shouldve just worked at McDonald's on second thought. Oh well, I cant give up halfway and I think I will learn more stuff at Mr Bean, which also means I may do more wrong stuff. NO NO CHOY CHOY CHOY I REJECT THAT IN JESUS' NAME. I shall not make another mistake and be cool and composed when I start work again.
Received some bad news, or should I say, sad news just a while ago. Uncle Papa passed away this afternoon. Though I'm not very close to him, we've visited his family every chinese new year and it would feel weird not seeing him there next year. I mean I know his health was deteriorating and from the chats from the adults it seems he's quite stubborn to go out ant exercise, it still is kinda sad to know someone you usually see (once a year) would not be on this earth anymore.
Anyway, another random ummm idontknowwhattodescribeit but here it goes. I can literallly feel the weight of my fats especially the chunk on my tummy. Like it is such a pain in the ass and I know I can sit here and rattle on the whole night when I should be going for a run and working my ass off to get those fats off instead of writing how I hate my fats here and not doing anything but...I just had to get it off my chest and let it serve as a constant reminder that I need to stop eating processed food(which I had for dinner) and start exercising a gazillion times harder than what i'm doing right now (which is only exercising my fingers,muscular finger here I come). And it is times like this when I start being irritating and annoying and everyone will hate me once I say this but, I already am so I shall just say it. I wish I were one of those peeps who have sky rocketing high metabolism rate and not rates that move like a sloth (disclaimer: I dont hate sloths in fact I think they're cute)
Actually I have not yet officially embarked on what I planned to do this holiday, which is very worrying. I have gotta have more self discipline man if not I won't have what I aimed for for the new year. Like I don't think my new year resolutions usually come true so I made a promise to myself not to get started on those unrealistic goals ever again (despite telling myself that every year and making the same mistakes again every year). Now that I typed that put, it seems I've got some self reflecting to do. :P
I'm flipping through that trusty old notebook where I used to plan my revision
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and I found a page where I must've been dreaming away to some fantasy again, writing nonsense about you and all that crap. Looking back at all the so called songs and notes I wrote about you, I kinda feel a bit stupid. Cos they actually all sound about the same, have around the same lyrics/words and the worst thing is that it's all about you. I can't believe how I used to think so much about that one person that thinking back, I could've really used that time and do something much more useful. I mean i'm lying if I say i'm not thinking about it now, since after all 3 years is a prettyy long time, but now different kind of thoughts come into my mind. Not so dreamy anymore I guess. You could say I've resigned to the facts that have been placed before me in the form of concrete evidence. It was kinda heartbreaking at first but y'know, we all have to go through these sort of things at least once in our lifetime right? Truthfully, the only reason why I dare to write all these personal stuff is because I know no one reads my blog. :P But then again, I'm silently wishing and praying that someday I will be some famous blogger so that I can earn a lot of money without having to do much besides blogging XP But I know that is just my wishful thinking because for 1, I dont lead a very interesting life, 2. I'm not pretty and 3. My language is just not there. Actually number 2 should be the number 1. Anyway I remembered on the flight to thailand I told JieJie I was dense when I meant deep and so I kinda just insulted myself. And sometimes I think I'm so pro by using a bombastic word but actually I use it wrongly,pronounce it wrongly and most of the time I just make up a form of that word and say it as if there is really such a word. All the english language scientists (is that what you call them?or researchers?) should be preparing their rotten tomatoes now to throw at me .
I'm gonna meet megan on friday!!!!! I'm so HAPPYYYYYY! I CANT WAIT! she's definitely a friend I would keep for life. So amazing how we are so different and yet can remain good friends. Like we dont even meet regularly or go to the same school xD
Ok so it's getting a little boring I bet since it is so wordy so, goodbye to myself since it's awkward to just end so...bye!
I hate tomatoes